It's all hidden.

sigh... a sudden dilema!! going through my finances.. shucks! i'm in deep shit.. got to save 2k plus in 3 months.. how to sia?!?!?!?!

Europe -- 23 uncomfortable days [9-9.5k]
US -- 13 shiok days [6k]
US+Korea -- 21 shiok days [8k]

.... or should i go china and taiwan?!?!?! omgggggg.... which one should i choose?? whats with me man!!! why the sudden change of mind??? prob because i dun wanna stay in some lousy hotel that doesn't serve international breakfast but continental breakfast which literately means bread and butter??? prob because i dun wanna go ard london with my measely sum of spending $$, having to note every pence that i spend... or maybe i'm juz being flickle minded...

well i guess all these emotions are stirred due to the restrictions in my expenditure, since i'm on a huge savings plan for the stopid trip.. mmm... maybe i shouldn't even go anywhere!!! and keep all the $$ that mummy's gonna give me for the trip!!! thats kinda a fine idea!!! think i'm rather wreaked!

isn't this major sweetness?? its only 4 bucks!! but... can i really afford it in my present financial condition??? somebody tell me!!! what am i suppose to do?!??!?!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 7:54 AM .

i know that i'm being a real bitch for talkin behind somebody's back like that, whinning and complaining abt the person's behaviour!!! but i CAN"T help it!!! My mind is kinda confused with all the mixed feelings that i'm subjecting myself to now!!! omgggggggggg... when i heard the "explaination"or "reason" or maybe its an "excuse", i totally went beserk!

i seriously dun understand why can't this person use his/her [not specifying gender here to prevent unnecessary speculation] tiny winy little brain and THINK!!! if you cannot think, pls at least do a little research, find out whats going on in the market/industry!!! find out the norms and not rely on other ppl!!! hey!!! this is something that has been going on for a long time... can't u plan ahead, take the initiative to read abt it??? find out more?? why base your decisions on what ppl tell u??? worse till, redraw because of 1 person's comment [ps and the person is not even involve in this activity]. pls lah!! we're all educated ppl!!! make your own decisions!!! read, search & prepare!! to make the matter worse, u flinch at the last possible minute!!! dun plan dun contribute, fine! but u have to change your mind when everything is settled??? its really WTF??!??! but u know what... i dun really care anymore!!! i'm going ahead with my plans regardless of any more changes that other ppl wanna make.. no more anger, sadness or whatever feeling will affect me with regards to this matter anymore!!!

sorry, whoever who read this blog.. its very much filled with anger.. anger that is buried deep down inside me that is unleashed only in my blog.. anger that even my closest friends dun know abt... anger that prob turned me into a cynical and bitter person with regards to this matter... anger... whatever!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 7:43 AM .

planning for a 11 ppl trip is certainly not easy!!! haha.. since KPMG have to start work in july as stated on the contract (Btw i signed the stopid contract today... made me go all the way down to town to sign something that takes like 5 secs!!! but i'm not gonna complain... i'm grateful!!), grace, fiona, chris and diana is joining me, irene, charm, zy, brother hamster + 2 other guys (we dunno them) on our grad trip!!!

11 ppl!!!! exciting yet tiring to plan... different ppl wanna go to different places, some can go in may, some cannot.. some got to come back early, some wanna stay longer!!! argh!!! its all so confusing!!! so many request, yet nobody is doing the planning and the coordination!!! Thank god i actually enjoy doing such thing.. though i can be a little pissy at times when some stopid ppl tell me that they cannot confirm or they may have other plans!!! omgggggg... so mah fan then pls help plan lah!!!

sigh... feeling pissy after typing all that.. sigh.. another consideration is the cost... 2 days onboard the plane, 19 days tour, extend 4 days in london = 25 days --> $6000 before expenses!! expenses will be abt 2500 so total $2500!!! sigh... thats F***ing ex!!! where am i going to dig out such a huge amount?? guess i must go on a major saving plan -- spending $20 a week!!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 4:03 AM .

PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! can't sleep.. cannot concentrate on my work!!!!! omgggggggg... this is worst than the extraction of wisdom tooth!!!!!!!!

can't slp yest nite because of the constant sharp pain in my ear... walked up and down from my room to darlin's room then back to mine.. at last cannot tah han .. got to wake him up at 8 to accompany me to doctor ..* sobz... tears streamming down when i was on the phone with him.. sigh.. i'm juz full of self pity and pain...*

after consultation, we went JP for breakfast.. then i slept the whole afternoon away.. a fitful nap i would say... but shawnie sooooooo sweet... was there lookin after me the whole time... help me with my ear drops, feed me my med... sigh... i'm juz so pampered by him... I LOVE U BABY!!!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 4:02 AM .

F*****

actually the day started out really nicely!! Woke up at 7.30, don my $79 suit [damn cheap!!! a must buy in DANO!!!], went for interview and got the job on the spot!! I tot, "WOW! that was easy!!!"

Since i'm in such a celebration mood, i decide to meet fiona (acc tuition session) and do a little shopping.. SHopped at paragon, tangs, taka, wisma... but nothing seems to catch my attention.. sigh... so much for having a resolution to spend $$$..

Afterwhich i dutifully took a lonnggggggggggg train ride back to NTU... and slept the rest of my afternoon away... thennnnnnnnn... came the bad news.. sigh.... Received a call from my aunty which made me realized that i clinched the job because of her connections... arghhhhh ... that totally broke my sprirt and took away my happiness!!! so i didn't get the job because i'm capable enough!!! i got the job through connections!!! WTF!!! what a loser!!!!

Then a little good came along... had a really nice chat abt savings during our first few years of work for marriage, car and housing... hahaha after much debate and calculations, we can't f***ing save anything at all for the first and second year!!! omgggggggg... am i ever gonna get married and get my own place???

sighhh... stopid ZY have to come and ruin the whole gathering by screaming at us... complaining that we're not doing our work (ps.. we're suppose to have the afternoon off... so we're expected to do work at night, after 10.30pm..) and he made this huge fuss abt us not doing our work!!! I was like OMG!!! we usually start work after 12 or 1am.. whats the huge fuss now???!?!?!? and its only 1 night. i understand that we're suppose to be really stressed out this period due to the upcomin submission dateline.. but we seriously intend to do tonight!!! juz that we're kinda starting ltr as its rare that joyce, cheryl, sam, diana, chris, fi, grace and 1 come together and chat abt stopid things...

So.. I'm currently at my computer, dutifully changing figures for our data and intend to finish it before we're dued for class tml.. so as to get things over and done with... on the overall.. today is really kinda fU**E* up!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 10:10 AM .

Tomorrow is Valentines day.. why dun i feel the girlie excitement that i used to feel?? am i that old?!?! am i that unromantic?? or did i catch shawnie's disease that brainwashed my brain to think that valentines day is too commercialize and its nothing epecial??!?!? sigh.. it feels as if i'm becoming my boogums and he's transformed into me??

ANiwae got KP's call last friday for an interview for the audit position.. is it a good sign?? or maybe its bad.. sigh... i really would rather go for the Risk management placement.. well.. interview is on wed... wish me luck!!!

I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels... I need a power suit... I need a pair of power heels...

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 6:28 AM .

rainy day... not enough sleep... lots of work undone.. readings to catch up with.. missing classes.. arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 9:07 AM .

delicated to irene and weihao!!!

yeah!!! MY FRENS ARE BACK TOGETHER!!! we will not see irene cry in the cab or hear her cry over the phone anymore!!!! neither will we have any more mass crying session * short but still mass -- nini, me and irene... dunno whether yh teared anot* in the cab.. unless somebody else break up. hehe .. TOUCH WOOD!!!

BEst wishes to the both of you!!! btw irene!!! i BET that after this rough patch, both of you will last for ever and ever.. hehe weihao!! better not bully my lovely irene anymore ah.. if not i'll flood your room!! hehe

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 7:52 PM .

which one should i get?? all look so beautiful...... sobz broke!!!

sigh.. the online shopping craze is going on again!!! its like a once a sem thingy.. Victoria secrets, american eagles.... argh!!!!!!!!

bought in a spur of moment * while fiona, joyce and grace did their shopping*:

1. Strawberry and champagne hand and body cream
2. Strawberry and champagne body scrub
3. Off shoulder top

and thats like $70 bucks... plus the birkis for lao de yest.. another $80.. arghhhhh.. $150 in 2 days???

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 12:37 AM .

continuation of the previous post.. more pictures of our photoshoot escapade!!

reliving our childhood!! hahaha i love merry-go-rounds!!!

Drooling over tim tams at candy empire.. sobz.. we went there a little too late.. shop was closed.. but we couldn't help but peer into the store like little children admiring the goodies they have inside.. :)

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 10:01 PM .

wierd... i posted this entry before, together with my europe trip entry.... but.. for some unforseen reasons, they disappeared!!! so here's the entry again, plus pictures we took that day!!! all for nini!!

hehehe...

my "little" cousin nini is 22nd already!!! so olddddddddd... haahaha i'm soooo old too!!! there's the picture of nini at thai express, where we had her birthday dinner.. heheheh.. so sweet horrr... well we certainly went crazy with the camera that evening.. taking pictures of all the food that we ordered, in addition to all the videos that charm and adrian took while we're at our crazy actics..

here's us with our orders... heheheheh next, we proceed on to max's at esplanade for SUCKAOS!! look at our yummylicious chocolate drink!!! greedy as we are, we couldn't help it but order all 3 flavours!! dark, milk, white

haha.. greedy choc lover cousins -- nini and me!!

after such a heartening dessert, we couldn't possibily head home... anwiae the night was still young.. so being such camera whores, we decide to have a photoshoot.. at the so very scenic place -- center sq in between millenia walk and some hotel *can't remember the name lah* haha... watch out for some obscene pictures of irene and yh!!!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 9:22 PM .

8 stars/10 stars!!!!
- 1 star (ruin the "sun and moon" song)
- 1 star (medley such as the rain song is a little irrelevant to the show)

but on the whole, its great!!!! hahaha.. the show is damn funny and sebastian tan is a natural performer!! BABY!! thanks for bringing me for the show!! totally loved it!!

the letter E summerizes my shape told you a secret at 1:24 AM .